Today has undoubtedly been one of the worse days of my life. I woke up in the morning with cold and cough. But was still going on quite ok, cleaning up the rest of the house and working. Thankfully, I do seem to be coming across some good business prospects at last.
But it wasnt before long when I got a call from my mother. Someone has been harrassing my parents by asking for my whereabouts. The last few days the calls had been frequent. In the last two days, there had been calls from someone who wanted to know where my boyfriend(obviously whoever this person is doesnt know we've broken up) is and where I might be.
Then today, someone abused me on the phone to my mother. My father keeps on getting these calls on his mobile. As suggested by my lawyer I had asked my mother and father to ignore these calls. This is just a response from my ex husband's side to scare us into paying more to the banks. He must have received the legal notice sent by my lawyer(this time I got a good one; expensive but atleast he knows what he's doing and is on my side).
My father though, today committed a blunder. He picked up the phone of the so called guys from the Collection Department of the bank and talked to them. These are the guys who sometime back, when I told them very politely that I had paid my share and was not liable anymore told me to go and sell myself but get the money. My father talked to them and they scared him into believing that I shall be either be arrested for fraud(which is an immpossibility as I have already paid my share of dues and am legally not responsible anymore) or I shall be killed.
My father agreed to pay. And he didnt even consider my lawyer's advice and just went ahead. Didnt tell me anything. Just talked to them and told them he will pay. I was told by my mother who had the sense to call me. I wept with frustration of all this. Why Oh why did he do it??? Especially when we're not in the wrong??
I called up my lawyer and told him of my father's doing. My lawyer sighed in frustration and told me in no uncertain terms that he had warned us not to give in. In his place, he stood absolutely correct. What was the point of sending the legal notice and notifying all that I was free of liability if my real intention was paying the liability of that bastard of my ex husband?
I felt lost. I could see(still feel that though at a lesser measure now) my future slipping away, my plans to succeed in life going far away from me. I wept, not cos my father agreed-not only cos of that. I wept cos these guys know my father cares so much and they are emotionally blackmailing him. My father is the guy who will not listen to anyone once his mind is made up. What do I do? I kept on thinking till late afternoon. So depressed I became that I fainted in the kitchen while I was cooking lunch for my brother.
Nothing made sense to me. I was in a limbo.
My brother, thank God for his good sense, who was there with me, tried to calm me down, stem my tears. Talked to my father and asked him ..practically begged him to talk to my lawyer. I shouted at my dad for the first time in my life today and am not proud of it. I was always taught to respect elders but sometimes..I just cant help but feel so ..disconnected from him!!
By evening, I had restored some of my normal faith in myself after an unrestful sleep. But in the sleep,something magical happened. I saw the lady in bright red, with halo behind her, telling me that I was not to lose hope. I have come so far and fought enough against injustice. I must not give up now.
So there it is, I am back in myself again though not completely. I still am very shaken but atleast I grasp the situation now. My lawyer will make amends to the mistake made by my dad.
The whole day went by full of negative intense emotions but thank God for that dream. Wonder who she was? A Goddess for sure?!
Its 0330 Indian time and I should have slept long back but sleep eludes me today. My mind is still a whirlpool of thought and no matter how hard I try, I am unable to stop it.I think,I shall read some more blogs. Maybe that will calm me down.
Hope tomorrow is better than today.
Until later.
vicstravels
Oh wow, these are some hard times for you and your family. I'm glad you are staying strong and fighting hard. I'm sure you realise already that even though your father did the wrong thing by giving in to those guys, he did it because he loves you so much, and he doesn't want you to be hurt. (My father also does fustrating things out of his love for me)...
All the best, and my thoughts are with you today.
Luv, Vic.